Sober Artism

Okay. I guess I gotta give a little update. I've been sober nine months and five days now. It's the most incredible thing that's ever happened to me. I am infinitely grateful that I am an alcoholic because the hell that I went through and the experiences that I've had are giving me a balance and perspective and appreciation for how truly amazing this life can be. Because I am an alcoholic I got the wonderful gift of being able to work through AA's twelve steps and that is gradually bringing out the full depth of the talents and wisdom and love that God equipped me with when I started out in this world. Fuck yeah!

About a month ago I started painting and drawing again after a 15-20 year lapse. One of my paintings - "Surrender" was in an arts exhibit a few weeks ago and has already sold. I've been given two commissions to work on and was already paid pretty well for the preliminary sketch for one of those.

I am still unemployed, but I have been getting a lot of odd jobs helping people with their computers and that's keeping me floating.

Recently I read the first two volumes of "Conversations With God." Some pretty amazing stuff in there. One concept that has particularly helped my situation:

"The moment you say 'I want' something, the universe says, 'Indeed you do' and gives you that precise experience - the experience of 'wanting' it! Whatever you put after the word 'I' becomes your creative command."

So now instead of wanting a job and wanting rent money and wanting a healthy relationship, I put thoughts into my prayers like, "I am meeting the right people and doing the right things that are leading me into productive and profitable opportunities. Thank you, God."

Right now I'm reading "The Power of Now." Another freaked out book that works perfectly for my kind of spirituality.

Anyways, here's some of the new artwork.


This is what I look like today.


This is a little flower I drew in my notebook.


Surrender


This is my friend Victoria. She's a poet and a painter. She was key in helping me reawaken my artism. Thank you, Victoria.


This is a painting titled "One" that I made for Victoria.

This Golden Moment

Hello.

Quick note here. I've done two new paintings in the past few weeks. I'll try to get them up on here soon. I'm very proud of them and it's an incredible joy to know that after almost nine months of very real sobriety, the me that was always intended to be is finally coming into focus. Yeah, good times.

I just finished reading "Conversations With God, Vol. 1" by Neale Donald Walsch last night. Holy crap :) Yeah. That's my new favorite book for today.

Anyways, what really inspired me to put up a post today is that I notice Nicole's ex(?) boyfriend/fiance has been checking my blog with regularity. Either that or somebody in Perth, Australia really has a curiosity thing going. Let me save you some time guy ... I haven't seen her since the last night that I drank back in January and I haven't spoken a word with her in at least six months. Your efforts at stalking her are better spent elsewhere. I have no desire to communicate with her unless by some freak miracle she can get honest with herself and stop spreading her beauty-colored fear all over people's lives.

So anyways. I'll be getting my nine months AA chip next saturday (10/17) and I'm just continually amazed every single freaking moment and day how awesome this life is turning out. It only gets better. Even when it's pretty bad, it's so much better.