No Easy Package

.12:05 am

It's gonna be a load of shit. I can smell it already like a steady build up to a monumental fart. There's already enough people with opinions they think are solid and infallible. This one's gonna take a truckload or three of toilet paper. See them gathering in their little groups preaching to their little choirs not a one got a ball to disagree. Hear the amens and the hallelujahs and if you don't stand up when everyone else stands up then you're a painted red sinner - you're a brother of the devil - you got no right to be standing on God's green earth. It's written right there into the constitution of God's country that if you ain't a Christian ain't no man gonna give you a job ain't no man gonna call you his brother. In fact somewhere there in the old books of The Bible I'm sure they got a couple of clauses or at least something they can use that'll sound respectful in a courtroom. And of course I know that's a lie. I know that dear, sweet Mr. Jefferson would have never allowed that. I'm sure he had to bang his fist twenties of times on those meeting tables where they laid out the enlightened theories that built this country. I'm sure he banged his fist and said with clarity something to the effect of keep your god damned religion off my country.

It's gonna be bright and enigmatic. It's gonna shine long after the moon goes down. It's gonna make the morning rouster rooster do a double take. It's gonna walk right out with the sun in front of everybody and just lay itself down and tell everyone to go ahead and scrutinize. It's gonna look at you and you're just gonna tell it straight up cause you can't do other - "I don't even know myself."

It's not going to come in any easy package you can fix right up in 2-3 minutes. Basically, you're going to have to pick out the ingredients yourself one at a time from all the in-between and almost-there stuff that crosses your world and then you're going to have to test these ingredients one at a time until you come up with something that tastes just right. There's not going to be any easy packages you can download off the internet and if you try to steal your neighbor's recipe it's only going to poison you.

It's gonna be a simple moment in the middle of your breakfast when you're chewing fast because you gotta be there before the boss and you're gonna stop chewing because you were thinking about a joke someone told you two or six days ago and now suddenly you "Get It" and you realize it wasn't never meant to be funny. You've stopped thinking about work or breakfast or the boss. Now you gotta go sit down on the toilet for a long time and think about it until you can square it in your head.

It's gonna be a sweet release and you'll probably moan a little. It's gonna move right through you and out of you and into everything. And the moment you'll know it's alright is when you recognize that it was already there and always was and nothing's different except you.